The Walls We Hide Behind....Insecurity.

 

Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working.~James 5:16

I was born into a very intellectual, artistic, talented family. God forgot to bless me with talents like theirs, didn't He know that I need to be like everyone else? Don't be silly....God knew what He was doing even if I forget to give Him credit. Now my family will tell you that I have a big heart, compassion, yada, yada...I see it as them just being nice, they are trying to cover up my lack of talent. I have major insecurities about who I am and how I relate to them. I get married and guess what? My family that God has allowed me to mother is very talented musically. I just can't catch a break...lol. That is the thought loop on a bad day when I allow insecurity to rear it's ugly head, and forget that God has a plan just for me.


I am learning that comparing myself to others, even those I love and being insecure is cheating myself of what God has for me. He creates each of us differently and for different purposes. All are meaningful and are important, we just have to choose to see it and to trust our Maker.

I am still looking and praying for ways for God to use me. The difference in the me of today and the me I used to be, I trust God with what He has blessed me with and I am asking how I can use my talents known and unknown for Him and I am preparing to step out in faith. I can see where this also strengthens the body of Christ. We are called to be accountable in love to each other but if we are insecure we hide and are not transparent and this can hinder spiritual growth. And insecurity can also cause us to lash out in jealousy and anger at those we should be building up and encouraging as brothers and sisters in Christ.

Brothers, if anyone is caught in any transgression, you who are spiritual should restore him in a spirit of gentleness. Keep watch on yourself, lest you too be tempted. Bear one another's burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ.~Galatians 6:1-2

In the Baptist denomination there is a saying "God doesn't call the qualified, he qualifies the called"...I believe this is 100% true and each person called to minister even if we are called to the same methods we are each going to go about it differently because we are each created unique by God to reach a certain set of people.
Don't compare and cheat yourself God has your back!

Insecurity within a marriage is just as destructive. You are throwing out God given validity and blowing your flaws or what you perceive to be flaws way out of proportion and shining a spot light on them. This goes hand in hand with negativity and this is hard for our spouses to deal with on a daily basis. Most of the time I find that these "quirks" are endearing to my mate and he doesn't mind them near as much as I do. So I must remember to keep it in the proper perspective. Staying in the Word of God is the way to do this and to keep an eternal world view. It reminds me that my life is just a tiny part of the picture and I don't want to waste what God has given me, overly criticizing His handiwork.