I have a EATING DISORDER... PLEASE HELP!

I got your attention didn't I?

If you have seen my profile you realize, I am a big girl, but that's not what I am talking about! In the past I have let BITTERNESS EAT ME ALIVE ! I know of many ladies (myself included and DeAnna too) that give their joy away by letting bitterness creep in and stay. Whether it be toward your husband or your kids ,even our own church family. The devil is a deceiver. He knows where to attack us, how to CRIPPLE us. That's what bitterness does. It's UUUGGG A LLLYY. Imagine an apple if you will ,all red and pretty. I get mad at my spouse for something and I let bitterness get in my heart about it, my apple gets bite marks on it, the thing about these bite marks is they are invisible to the naked eye. A worm has crept in and is doing damage from the inside out. Every thing looks great and pretty to the world but there is a cancer invading and taking over. Every time something happens in my life and I hang onto it and don't surrender it to the Lord, I let bitterness grow and I get more and more bitter. My apple dies even more. I am not beautiful anymore. I am broken. My core is being attacked. I start to shrivel up and die. I become nothing but a shell. BUT I started out as this beautiful whole apple. Red and shiny and good. I don't want the end of my life to be just an empty shell! Beware, bitterness is like that it eats at you. it nags at you and attacks your mind. Most of the time its in our own head, there isn't much validity to it. We let some small thing build and build until it has a place of prominence when it should have just been some passing annoyance. We don't tell the person that we feel has wronged us, we just feed our root of bitterness. And so many times they have no idea how we feel. (When you go to someone with a wrong make sure you go to them in love) This makes the issue one sided and gives bitterness a fertile ground to grow in.  In cases like this we are our own worst enemy.

 Hebrews 12:15 - Looking diligently lest any man fail of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up trouble [you], and thereby many be defiled;

James 5:16 - Confess [your] faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.

 Luke 17:4 - And if he trespass against thee seven times in a day, and seven times in a day turn again to thee, saying, I repent; thou shalt forgive him.


*Sitting and sulking in your own little pool of hatred can't be good for your physical or spiritual health. We need to learn to give things over to the Lord, ask for His will and how these situations can make us stronger and move on for His glory... I won't allow bitterness to get the best of me! Who wants icecream?